some incoherent thoughts

i miss ac, the lessons, the teachers, the sac, and most importantly, the dear friendships i made.

and thus am thankful for the catching ups, the short meetings and luncheons and dinners with ac peeps that makes me reminisce about the ‘old’ times. the updates on the going ons in our lives, most commonly uni apps, scholarship apps, plans for the future.

i enjoy the comforts of home, and thank God for my comfy bed, a soft blanket and air conditioning. and i thank God for my family, friends, music, blessings, guitar, and every single little thing that i can count as a blessing and be thankful for. Thank You Lord!

this is such a powerful promise. just like any other in the Bible, we just have to believe and claim it for ourselves in prayer.

Jeremiah 29:11 ‘ For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’

wow. how awesome is that. its a verse that has been ringing in my head since BMT when my dear brother in Christ Kevin will always remind me of when the going gets tough. it comes back to me now, as i keep in mind that all we have to do sometimes is just leave it up to Him, and try to grasp the full meaning of absolute trust. to not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. to live a life of surrender, and understand what it truly means.

we’re learning and growing each day.

Amen.

normal, normal.

so many things are considered ‘normal’ nowadays.

things about army life, that is. i shall not go into detail on a public domain, but i’m coping fine.

course is about to approach its end. combat fitness training is some tough stuff. thank God for bringing me through this week.

i think i’ve said this before, but i’ll say it again. can’t wait for church camp. a time of refreshing, renewal, and direction. hopefully.

many a time the monotony and lull of NS time sets you thinking, contemplating, and reflecting on life, its meaning, and purpose. and sometimes i really wonder how i’ll end up, how He wants things to be for me. its so mysterious its baffling, and irritating. but where’s the fun if we know everything thats going to happen to us. haha. ‘will i get married with 3 kids? or become an economist at some multinational corporation? or become a travelling musician playing christian gigs? (i really like this one), or michelin starred chef with restaurants around the world, doing cooking shows? what is it in store for me? what do i really want to do with my life? how do i want to live it for Him?’

i want to go diving, and take up photography, so i can do nature/marine photography. and watch a whole list of good movies that i haven’t caught. and make some money so i can get a custom bass (: all of these short term goals can perhaps be achieved after ORD! which i shouldn’t start counting simply because its such a long time from now. i should give thanks, and live in the present.

sometimes i feel i can really empathise with the writer in Ecclesiastes when he proclaims everything is meaningless. friends bring a lot of meaning and laughter and fun and life into life. and i thank God for friends. and of course my family which i couldn’t have done without. please bear with my ramblings as i count my blessings. thats all that really matters isn’t it. God, family, and friends.

there. i feel better now. i think. all i want is a good night’s rest in my own bed. with a new blanket. and maximise my weekend time (: so cheers to an NSF’s extended bookout break this weekend!