civvie not enough.

well. the more i expose myself to civilian-ness, the more i get attached to it. the joys of freedom, of taking in a fresh breath of civilisation and shopping mall air. the privilege of walking around places where civilians are aplenty.  i’m really going to dread the coming 500 odd number of days that i have left obliged to regimentation.  hopefully it’ll get better. some weekends i book in happier than others. this one doesn’t seem to be one of those. bah.

i miss my friends.

its going to be a long week ahead. because of ATP i think we’ll only come out earliest saturday night. possible sunday morning i heard. sigh.

sometimes i just don’t want the weekend to end. but i’m sure there are millions of people who think the same thought.

sometimes i want to get a scholarship and go to the UK to study and be all that i can be.

sometimes i don’t.

sometimes i just want to stay in singapore and live a simple life. just like one of the songs we sing in NS

i dont wanna lead an army life

i just wanna live a simple life

pc i wanna go

oc dont let me go

mummy i wanna go home

haha. at least that brought a chuckle. i guess i have to look on the bright side.

but i know He has a plan. and i should trust in that plan.

and start surrendering to Him again.

POP loh!

for the second time. this time i’ve just passed out from my course. feels great to wear that blue beret, and i proudly wear my CBRD course badge on my uniform.

its been 10 weeks, and its always the time when you look back on the first day and then you realize that the days transpired so quickly. at the start you’re raring to go, during the tough times you want it to end, and at the end you look back at all you’ve been through. ah.

looking forward to life of a CBRD pioneer.

looking forward to church camp!

looking forward to sleep, right after i finish packing my bag.